tough time right now

i'm having a tough time these few weeks. trying to figure out what's my top priority...i'm not handling my time well, and it is driving me up the walls! i know i have to sort out my priorities but things are not really easy. i really should learn to handle things around me better...

well, final exam started today, with maths as the first paper. it was far more harder than what i really expected! wish it was easier...wish i am smarter. but anyway, i don't have any paper tomorrow but i have much to worry day after tomorrow...i hope i'll be able to get things done as soon as possible. but with my current rate, i doubt it will be a smooth ride for me. i should organize myself better. organize my life better. set priorities right, and use my time at the right place!

one more thing which is giving me a hard time i again, about people. suddenly i feel like i'm already letting go of people i care most. it's a very depressing feeling...it's like suddenly i'm trying to ignore someone i care most. i don't know what caused this but i don't like this feeling at all. the feeling of letting go someone once so important is really hurting myself, but i can't help it. i don't even know what i the cause! i feel so distant when i talk to them, i feel like i'm trying to avoid them, i feel like i shouldn't talk to them. but they are people i once cared a lot! even the thought of this is driving me crazy!! hate me if you want to, but i just can't help it! i don't know what to do, i don't know what to think, and i don't know why this is happening to me right now!